post-gameplay vagabond
@droqen.bsky.social
the end of gameplay (2025) https://store.steampowered.com/app/3120040/The_End_of_Gameplay/
i don't know what i'm going to be after this and it's scary
i don't know what i'm going to be after this and it's scary
some activities involve different states of mind (the aesthetics of play, some would say) but i think i d need to be consistently learning and exploring new things about the world, i don't even know if enjoying the action itself has any relevance..
December 7, 2025 at 8:07 PM
some activities involve different states of mind (the aesthetics of play, some would say) but i think i d need to be consistently learning and exploring new things about the world, i don't even know if enjoying the action itself has any relevance..
im not sure why i thought this was relevant. i am interested in: what could i do a thousand times or every day for a year or for the rest of my life?
December 7, 2025 at 8:05 PM
im not sure why i thought this was relevant. i am interested in: what could i do a thousand times or every day for a year or for the rest of my life?
i can't imagine making s o many copies of such a weird niche product by hand, he's been here for years so i guess he can do that
December 7, 2025 at 8:04 PM
i can't imagine making s o many copies of such a weird niche product by hand, he's been here for years so i guess he can do that
reflecting on what i said about woodworking, im at this craft market today literally with woodworkers at it... there's a guy who makes these funny little wooden sound amplifiers that you put your phone in to make the sound louder
December 7, 2025 at 8:04 PM
reflecting on what i said about woodworking, im at this craft market today literally with woodworkers at it... there's a guy who makes these funny little wooden sound amplifiers that you put your phone in to make the sound louder
im definitely not making a blanket statement like all games categorically without exception will always fail this criteria btw, just trying to put my finger on something that feels like a distinct difference
December 7, 2025 at 8:02 PM
im definitely not making a blanket statement like all games categorically without exception will always fail this criteria btw, just trying to put my finger on something that feels like a distinct difference
sylvie i cannot express how valuable this egg metaphor is to me haha. i was walking to my oven to take out some frozen pot pies and i was like "thank god there is a sylvie in this world". i too feel seen an d understood
*i dont believe in god its just the phrase that came to mind
*i dont believe in god its just the phrase that came to mind
December 7, 2025 at 6:10 PM
sylvie i cannot express how valuable this egg metaphor is to me haha. i was walking to my oven to take out some frozen pot pies and i was like "thank god there is a sylvie in this world". i too feel seen an d understood
*i dont believe in god its just the phrase that came to mind
*i dont believe in god its just the phrase that came to mind
except for my part i am maybe going to just go find different eggs and white and shells ? maybe ??? i think i will not try to decide too much ahead of time but i am going to stop thinking so much about all the problems i perceive with whites and shells
December 7, 2025 at 6:06 PM
except for my part i am maybe going to just go find different eggs and white and shells ? maybe ??? i think i will not try to decide too much ahead of time but i am going to stop thinking so much about all the problems i perceive with whites and shells
wow yeah that makes sense. and i think i am sort of like. . . on a similar path but with a different decision haha. i mean i always knew that kill gameplay was potentially also going to kill games for me but i also am like, i think maybe this is too hard to think about
December 7, 2025 at 6:04 PM
wow yeah that makes sense. and i think i am sort of like. . . on a similar path but with a different decision haha. i mean i always knew that kill gameplay was potentially also going to kill games for me but i also am like, i think maybe this is too hard to think about
yes i am kind of like . . . not sure whether it is even okay to have this belief or draw this parallel
December 7, 2025 at 5:59 PM
yes i am kind of like . . . not sure whether it is even okay to have this belief or draw this parallel
what i wonder is why it is so particularly 'alien' and why that matters, i mean, that's what i got stuck on too (ah, am i Weirdo), but it's also a specific way that bennett has framed it (normalizing a particular approach)
December 7, 2025 at 5:46 PM
what i wonder is why it is so particularly 'alien' and why that matters, i mean, that's what i got stuck on too (ah, am i Weirdo), but it's also a specific way that bennett has framed it (normalizing a particular approach)
once more you are one step ahead of me, sylvie!!! already surprised by the thing that also surprises me
bsky.app/profile/sylv...
bsky.app/profile/sylv...
and i don't think i intended or expected it to be confusing, i think i thought of it as like, "this is a silly way of expressing an intuitive thing i feel", so i was surprised when bennett framed it as something that would be alien to most game designers.... i don't know what game design is
December 7, 2025 at 5:45 PM
once more you are one step ahead of me, sylvie!!! already surprised by the thing that also surprises me
bsky.app/profile/sylv...
bsky.app/profile/sylv...
i am still grappling with the suggestion that most game designers love to consider the results of their decisions and eliminate edge cases, i will refrain from jumping to my first conclusion and just sit on this egg for a while.
December 7, 2025 at 5:41 PM
i am still grappling with the suggestion that most game designers love to consider the results of their decisions and eliminate edge cases, i will refrain from jumping to my first conclusion and just sit on this egg for a while.
okay i have read it one more time and i think i more deeply engaged with the middle of this post and i relate very much
December 7, 2025 at 5:39 PM
okay i have read it one more time and i think i more deeply engaged with the middle of this post and i relate very much
i am wondering what i will end up making or doing but i really relate to this "egg" metaphor, i will aspire to lay eggs too and see what comes out
i will probably continue to play games for about 30 seconds only to go "ah, that's what you want me to do" and then quitting T_T
i will probably continue to play games for about 30 seconds only to go "ah, that's what you want me to do" and then quitting T_T
December 7, 2025 at 5:36 PM
i am wondering what i will end up making or doing but i really relate to this "egg" metaphor, i will aspire to lay eggs too and see what comes out
i will probably continue to play games for about 30 seconds only to go "ah, that's what you want me to do" and then quitting T_T
i will probably continue to play games for about 30 seconds only to go "ah, that's what you want me to do" and then quitting T_T
i did read it but i would always read it one more time
December 7, 2025 at 5:33 PM
i did read it but i would always read it one more time
you would be surprised how many things are secretly pixel art, i keep learning new ones
December 7, 2025 at 5:32 PM
you would be surprised how many things are secretly pixel art, i keep learning new ones
ur ahead of me this time *shakes fist*
December 7, 2025 at 5:31 PM
ur ahead of me this time *shakes fist*
2025, dec 5 - a new year's resolution.
2025, dec 5 - a new year's resolution.
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December 7, 2025 at 5:31 PM
it's going so slowly. i'm taking a high school biology course so that i can apply to a bachelors in psychology, with the eventual goal (strongly planned but loosely held) to go to an art therapy school in toronto & become a practicing therapist
December 7, 2025 at 5:30 PM
it's going so slowly. i'm taking a high school biology course so that i can apply to a bachelors in psychology, with the eventual goal (strongly planned but loosely held) to go to an art therapy school in toronto & become a practicing therapist
when i'm in the mall i can sort of actively tune out signs if i expend a considerable amount of mental effort in doing so, and then i discover i am within an interesting bit of architecture, surrounded by hustle and bustle, with the ability perhaps to focus on a task. but it is so, so exhausting.
December 7, 2025 at 5:28 PM
when i'm in the mall i can sort of actively tune out signs if i expend a considerable amount of mental effort in doing so, and then i discover i am within an interesting bit of architecture, surrounded by hustle and bustle, with the ability perhaps to focus on a task. but it is so, so exhausting.
i do sometimes like to use music to decorate time. i can listen to music while doing something, for instance. we can diverge here ofc!
there are forms of visual art that give me a gross feeling like the gross feeling i get from most games: bright, eye-catching signs in the mall.
there are forms of visual art that give me a gross feeling like the gross feeling i get from most games: bright, eye-catching signs in the mall.
December 7, 2025 at 5:27 PM
i do sometimes like to use music to decorate time. i can listen to music while doing something, for instance. we can diverge here ofc!
there are forms of visual art that give me a gross feeling like the gross feeling i get from most games: bright, eye-catching signs in the mall.
there are forms of visual art that give me a gross feeling like the gross feeling i get from most games: bright, eye-catching signs in the mall.
i have recently re-read a book series and i am like, yes, this is so full of interesting stuff that i actually missed the first time, or forgot about! and it fits more nicely into the shape of my day. it has a more pleasant aesthetic feeling.
December 7, 2025 at 5:26 PM
i have recently re-read a book series and i am like, yes, this is so full of interesting stuff that i actually missed the first time, or forgot about! and it fits more nicely into the shape of my day. it has a more pleasant aesthetic feeling.
i can't really give a nam eto this grossness! it is just disgusting to me! the slimy way that it feels in my brain when i am playing a game and compelled to keep playing it. it's not less slow, it's just that i am thinking less about the time it is consuming -- until after.
December 7, 2025 at 5:26 PM
i can't really give a nam eto this grossness! it is just disgusting to me! the slimy way that it feels in my brain when i am playing a game and compelled to keep playing it. it's not less slow, it's just that i am thinking less about the time it is consuming -- until after.
for the most part, when i play a game that i remember liking, it is worse, even significantly worse, than it is in my mind. often the worseness is that it is just so much fucking slower. i have to trudge through so much mud to get anywhere. when it's compelling it's compelling in a *gross* way
December 7, 2025 at 5:25 PM
for the most part, when i play a game that i remember liking, it is worse, even significantly worse, than it is in my mind. often the worseness is that it is just so much fucking slower. i have to trudge through so much mud to get anywhere. when it's compelling it's compelling in a *gross* way
this is interesting, okay, through this lens - i am at a computer now so i'm typing faster/better - generally i find that when there is a work of art that i like, i can keep it in my mind, but experiencing it again is better than i remembered
December 7, 2025 at 5:24 PM
this is interesting, okay, through this lens - i am at a computer now so i'm typing faster/better - generally i find that when there is a work of art that i like, i can keep it in my mind, but experiencing it again is better than i remembered