ur so mean to me

i was so upset LMFAO

i mightve doomed myself with the titty pic yall i wont lie

NOT getting married just a future thought cuz i wanna marry my bf someday and my father is not walking me hes not invited honestly neither is my mother so. i also hae no one to invite. certainly no bridesmaids or maid of honor. im just... alone.

for a long time. my dad flat out pretended i was invisible for weeks at a time when i was 15, bc i didnt wanna hug him after his physical abuse on my brother went too far. he yanked him by the hair into the air and screamed in his face. my mother knows how much it hurt me. shes doing the same thing.

i have to "earn trust and build relationships" to get "good things" like going to the store. she ignores me, sighs when i try and speak to her, gets upset when i need something. we've always been close. perhaps too close, maybe a trauma bond, however one sided. i considered her my best friend

"psychosis" cuz i stopped taking a med months ago that she always said didn't work, which we knew thanks to genetic testing.

she installed tracking software on my computer and denied it.

now she's cold shouldering me. saying i ruined our relationship with my lies so she cant be nice to me anymore

she gets really mad, screaming about everything under the sun, saying im selfish and i never apologize, that im constantly invading her privacy, that im in psychosis.

"selfish" bc i didnt apologize for being groomed and raped.

"invading privacy" bc i have my bf on the phone for my SAFTEY.

so of course i fucking stepped in. as soon as i enter the room my mom gets so mad, i havent even said a word, she yells at me to go away. she knows i dont let them do whatever they want. i tell her its not okay to treat my brother this way, she tries to justify it. so i call her out for abuse.

and this wasnt out of nowhere. they were taking the piss out of my brother, yelling at him, scolding him, calling him names. they let him go, talked shit abt him to eachother until they were worked up again, then called him back to yell at him some more. my dad was getting physically aggressive.

the visceral anger in my dads voice when i called him a child abuser. he screamed at me to get out of the house. my mom said i cant keep "torturing" them over "past mistakes". years of physical abuse, hygienic and medical neglect. "mistakes".

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