my hold on binary gender is tenuous at this point but even in that, it feels so fulfilling to be called...dad, or sir, titles people give me because they feel safe with me, to earn that respect is just... really special to me

I love my current partners but like... I'm very poly, I have a weird profile and boundaries sexually and romantically, and my connections that have felt the most nourishing in the last few years are those that have felt the least "traditional" but the most reciprocal in that. I want more of that

I do try to cut myself some slack in that regard considering my ability to visualize or imagine senses is incredibly, incredibly weak, and my imagination tends to be a runaway train... but it can be disheartening even still. I've been trying to get back into game development and it's been tough

the sheer unbridled confidence of cis men is actually terrifying

or maybe neopronouns

7 💚

just a glass or two! I don't drink much so it's become my occasional drink, it messes with me much less than liquor at this point xwx