I wan stuffies 🥺 all mine got lost in the fire

I very strongly doubt that...

Stop responding to negative posts

Hi Sae..

I've lost everything, I truly have nothing left.

I wish I died in that fire. Maybe that's what I deserved.

Once I came out I begged them to give me my phone but it had been lost in the fire along with everything else I owned.

Several months later my burns still hurt. @saeko.bsky.social doesn't even know or perhaps doesn't even care I almost died and Jenny and I fell out.

I fell into a coma, they had to fill me with tubes to survive. The brief awakenings I had, unable to speak was worry they'd be hurt if they thought I was dead.

Still I tore at that door with strength I didn't even have, I got it open and ran into the fire itself. Naked and dying I ran down the stairs to the grass. Onlookers watched as the EMTs finally scooped my nude cooked carcass off the ground and stuffed me in an ambulance.

The skin bubbled on my hands as I pried that door open. I pressed my shoulder and hip to the wall and felt the flesh literally melt off of me. The pain was horrific, my arms were literally cooked as my lungs blackened.

I think this is a out as far as I go... I'm tired

They all say this

I don't feel like I am owed nothing so much as I am owed hate, disgust and abuse for simply being a broken toy.

I've been with cats, it doesn't change a thing other than how many times they die

There is shame in the way I've ruined relationships. Whatever deeply internalized trauma I have doesn't justify the ways I've pushed people away. I am in no way innocent.

You'd only get an infection

Yeah, a bad one

I am a bird of ill omen.

It's as if everyone that shows me affection, compassion or kindness I need to chase away because I'm so convinced that I'm a walking whirlwind of bad luck, curses and failure that if anyone were to love me or even be a close friend to me that they are destined to be ruined just like me.