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Usagi🐰 @usagimsk3284tloz.bsky.social · 1h

I deleted my Twitter account. bye

Usagi🐰 @usagimsk3284tloz.bsky.social · 1h

Japanese has three main first-person pronouns.
“僕” and “俺” (male), “私” and "あたし" (female), and “自分” (neutral or gender-inclusive).
Among these, I am currently using “僕” to speak.

Usagi🐰 @usagimsk3284tloz.bsky.social · 2h

I understand that their actions are to protect themselves. That should be respected.But I'm so sad and have cried a lot. I'm upset with myself and bipolar

Usagi🐰 @usagimsk3284tloz.bsky.social · 2h

いつもありがとう。あなたがいてくれることが僕の心の支えになっているよ。

Usagi🐰 @usagimsk3284tloz.bsky.social · 2h

I hate this guilt and illness so much I feel like I'm going crazy. It's painful

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Usagi🐰 @usagimsk3284tloz.bsky.social · 2h

but obviously,most people wouldn't understand. Whatever the reason, this is what I did. During the worst of this illness, broke things out of anger, and I once kicked my family away. I was a completely different person. It ends up hurting both the other person and myself.

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Usagi🐰 @usagimsk3284tloz.bsky.social · 3h

My explanation was a bit unclear. What I'm trying to say is I was having manic episode due to bipolar, I think my friend and some people didn't like that I made negative or inappropriate and aggressive attitude. This was not really me, it was the illness that affecting me,

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Usagi🐰 @usagimsk3284tloz.bsky.social · 4h

Line art

I'll redraw a little later

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Usagi🐰 @usagimsk3284tloz.bsky.social · 8h

I just want you to know, so there's no need to reply if you don't want to

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Usagi🐰 @usagimsk3284tloz.bsky.social · 8h

I'm so grateful we're friends

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Usagi🐰 @usagimsk3284tloz.bsky.social · 8h

Don't worry, this is not about you. And I understand you. I feel the same way as you do. I think about you a lot, every day.
I've had a lot of sad things happen lately. I'm not sure if you've read it, but I posted about that before. If it's okay with you, check out my latest post too.

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Usagi🐰 @usagimsk3284tloz.bsky.social · 9h

They used "High Sensitive Person" as an excuse. If that's the case, then I fit the description too. HSP has no psychological or psychiatric evidences. It's just a matter of temperament. It really pisses me off that they brought that up to me, "their friend" who suffers from mental illness.

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Usagi🐰 @usagimsk3284tloz.bsky.social · 9h

If it were just an "ordinary" illness, people would understand, but when it's mental illness, somehow I'm being dismissed as a person. Both are people suffering from illness. What difference is there. They said we could be friends, but they couldn't accept it, and rejected me.

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Usagi🐰 @usagimsk3284tloz.bsky.social · 9h

I've lost a close friend and some followers who shared my love for Link due to my mental illness

Don't judge me just based on my symptoms
Why am I being blamed for being struggling with the mental health issues
I have the freedom to post anything, why do I have to be blamed

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Usagi🐰 @usagimsk3284tloz.bsky.social · 10h

Do not pretend I don't exist

please

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Usagi🐰 @usagimsk3284tloz.bsky.social · 13h

my English is weird

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Usagi🐰 @usagimsk3284tloz.bsky.social · 21h

I finally got my haircut after 6months

As my depression was terrible, I couldn't make it

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Usagi🐰 @usagimsk3284tloz.bsky.social · 23h

リンクの新規絵は10日以上？ぶりです。ワンドロです。
ポーズ参考あり。

もし元気があったら清書して線画にします

自分のために、あとは鍵アカウントで繋がってるフォロワーさんと友人の為に描いていきます

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Usagi🐰 @usagimsk3284tloz.bsky.social · 2d

海外のフォロワーさんからは、必要な支援をうけられるように…だったり励ましや共感だったり僕も私もbipolarですと伝えてくれる方がいたり、ここに相談してね、だとか言っていただいてやさしかったです。
日本も偏見や差別意識のすくない社会になってほしいです。無理解やその場の感情で人が離れていくのは辛いものです。僕たちは病気の苦しみに加えて、大切な人を傷つけ、そして自分を責め、人に傷つけられています。少しでも分かっていただけるような、例え理解はできなくとも知識の広まる社会になることを願います。
ゼル伝で出会った方、お友達今までありがとうございました。楽しかったです。

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Usagi🐰 @usagimsk3284tloz.bsky.social · 2d

Xのアカウントを昨日から削除しています。残念ですが、今後は戻る予定はないです。絵をやめるつもりはないのですが、リンクの絵を描けなくなりました。人間関係がぐちゃぐちゃになりショックなことも重なり、続けられなくなりました。病気への理解や周知、おなじ精神疾患のかたの助けや支えになるためのアカウントで活動いたします。僕自身も病気と向き合いつつ寛解、安定をめざします。

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Usagi🐰 @usagimsk3284tloz.bsky.social · 3d

I can't trust anybody anymore

Usagi🐰 @usagimsk3284tloz.bsky.social · 3d

It seems like, they want to surround themselves with positivity and avoid negativity. I keep lose relationships lately. Many people don't understand what it's like to live with bipolar. That's why I previously posted about my mental health issue.

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Usagi🐰 @usagimsk3284tloz.bsky.social · 3d

But they didn't accept me when I was struggling with my mental illness: I have bipolar, in a manic episode. I screwed up and lost it all. It felt like all good times and memories with them I had were thrown away. Bipolar, it's just a small part of me.

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Usagi🐰 @usagimsk3284tloz.bsky.social · 3d

I can never get back on my feet. I might not be able to draw Link again. I betrayed by my close online friend. I've been in personal contact with them. Also we met up and hung out. And they said to me that I am their friend.

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Usagi🐰 @usagimsk3284tloz.bsky.social · 3d

もう立ち直れない
リンクを描けなくなるかもしれない

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