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totalrake @totalrake.bsky.social · May 13

excerpt from my essay "caustic refractions," on gay pool parties, self-image and finding a sense of belonging open.substack.com/pub/epistemi...

Caustic Refractions

Reflections on gay pool parties, self-consciousness, and a sense of belonging.

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totalrake @totalrake.bsky.social · May 13

it's officially summertime!

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totalrake @totalrake.bsky.social · May 12

just read your responses and tysm for your kind words. and i feel you, it's hard out there. i struggle with trying not to attach my worth to how the job market treats me, but I'm working on it. godspeed to us.

totalrake @totalrake.bsky.social · Apr 28

open.substack.com/pub/epistemi...

no more magical thinking

not even Job got a clear answer.

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totalrake @totalrake.bsky.social · Apr 28

I'm done suffering. no more magical thinking. the worst happened (i failed the bar exam) and I'm still alive.

wrote this essay about a season of trials, lamentation and radical acceptance as my only salvation. here's my modern-day book of job, JD edition:

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totalrake @totalrake.bsky.social · Apr 27

my pleasure!! 😌

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totalrake @totalrake.bsky.social · Apr 25

it's hard being both a fuccboi and bf material but someone has to do it

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totalrake @totalrake.bsky.social · Apr 18

skill issue

totalrake @totalrake.bsky.social · Apr 18

i feel like the more thoughts i have, the less precious they seem. i used to hate when ideas escaped me, but i always get more anyway

totalrake @totalrake.bsky.social · Apr 17

lady gaga choreo is tailor made for gay boys idk how else to put it

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totalrake @totalrake.bsky.social · Apr 16

the way I'm meeting benevolent attorneys getting work tapping into my network (yapping on linkedin)

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totalrake @totalrake.bsky.social · Apr 15

sometimes i just think soothing things like jesus starved for 40 days in the wilderness before he even started his ministry....

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totalrake @totalrake.bsky.social · Apr 12

one of my favorite words 😌

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totalrake @totalrake.bsky.social · Apr 12

"it's not gay if you're topping" yeah that's what that bottom said to get you naked and you believed the jezebel...

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totalrake @totalrake.bsky.social · Apr 8

there's much to hate & too many people to hate in the world— that's why I'm selective about my energy. even my hate is sacred. not everyone deserves to be the object of my derision

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totalrake @totalrake.bsky.social · Mar 30

as a blasian, i'm so glad I'm exempt from swirling discourse. both sides contradict each other so I'm free to choose whomever i desire 🥰

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totalrake @totalrake.bsky.social · Mar 28

jewish ppl had such good PR when ppl didn't know what Zionism meant

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