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thesulkingzone.bsky.social
concentrated Ray of misery
@thesulkingzone.bsky.social
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hi I often feel like ass but also like drawing fat asses enjoy you stay
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general rule is if I'm posting here it generally means I'm not doing well mentally or I just drew good porn; for your convenience all art will be posted in this thread so use it if you don't want to deal with the landmine that is my mental state
I'm such a wretch lmao, I should probably get used to it tbh
none of this will matter tomorrow either way so who gives a fuck, not like I want people to care either way
I realize I'm just posting the equivalent of sh right now but it's like, man I feel like such a failure of a human being lmao, I can't even interact with people without coming off as weird and pathetic or just annoying and pedantic, small wonder I barely have any friends and burn so many bridges
I'm just waiting for the day where everything around me crumbles so I can go "eh I expected it, it's what I deserve tbh" like wow, the pathetic disgusting person loses at life how surprising-
maybe leaning into being "silly and whimsical :3" just made me into an inherently unattractive person. but well, I did it to myself so I don't get to complain tbh.
going to bed thinking about how I'll never be confident enough to be interesting or taken seriously, I built my entire persona around being a pathetic man and now I'm reaping what I've sown.

oh well, tis just life-
today has been such a weird day social-wise like I've been thinking about saying awful things to people and it's making me feel kinda ass sometimes.... not all the time at least but y'know-
I walked out of my room and got told by my mom that my hair sucks maybe my dreams were a premonition-
of course I'd be pegged as an asshole if I told them they're being unreasonable and childish so I ain't gonna bother-
just saw someone trying emulate the new game and get angry that it doesn't run perfectly, like what did you expect it's trying to run modern software lmao
today I feel weird and disgusting so expect some weird art-
sometimes it takes interacting with another person to think "oh god I hope I'm not this annoying-"
ougghhhh today is one of those days-
everyone's got that one oomf they muted on everything because they lowkey annoying af-
I think one of the most important life lessons I've learned over the years is that you can't really expect comfort from anyone but yourself

and now that I say it out loud it sounds psychotic but I swear today is a good day-
I hate putting on old clothes and not fitting in them I feel like such a fat fuck-
I be up drawing Kneesocks straight up jacking it
sometimes drawing your favorite characters jacking it is healing
need to keep my whimsy instead of letting the silly mechanisms win over me again and again....
I need to lock in and stop making myself miffed over nothing-
anyways a thought that's lingered in my mind is that I have at most 3 years of life left in me so, don't get too attached (not that anyone is but y'know-)
dude I feel like a fake person whenever I'm talking with people it's like there's this thick wall that I'm never able to cross-
that's enough depressionposting for today I'll just rot and try to pass out for tomorrow. it's probably going to fuckin suck but hey it is what it is-