Nicola Nuttall
@shitscaredmum.bsky.social
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Mum of girls - lost Laura to #braincancer ly. Campaigner, writer of lnk.to/TheStarsWillStillBeThere Runner, walker, non-stop talker 🦋
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Hello brave new blue sky world!

I’m here for talk about life & #loss, #glioblastoma & #grief, #books & #braintumours.
And why a #cancer that kills the most under 40s gets 2% of funding & has seen no new treatments for decades.

We lost our beloved girl in May 23 #BeMoreLaura is her legacy ❤️
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#TheStarsWillStillBeThere is out in paperback this week, it's a story of hope, love, kindness & resilience. A very ordinary family living everyone's worst nightmare.
Bruce 🐕‍🦺 is staying with us this week & was VERY keen to get involved with this video!
#BeMoreLaura 🌈
#Books
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Thank you so so much for reading it, must have been a tough read for you, I'm so very sorry for the loss of your brother to this truly vile disease. Would you like me to add his name for Sunday? It would be my honour to carry Barry with me x
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Next Sunday I’ll be running the #LondonMarathon for #BeMoreLaura & #SiblingSupport 2 charities very close to my heart ❤️

Last year I wore the names of 252 people lost to #braincancer - my skirt is pretty full but if you’ve lost someone to this awful disease pls let me know & I’ll add them
#ForLaura🌈
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This is brilliant Andrea, well done xxx
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As we near the end of #BrainTumourAwarenessMonth the need for change is more desperate than ever.
Through the #BeMoreLaura foundation we'll keep campaigning & funding vital research into #Glioblastoma because no family should ever experience this utter devastation.
#TheStarsWillStillBeThere
Laura 💚
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Thank you so much Sue, it's actually the very talented @melaniecrawley.bsky.social reading the audiobook xx
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Some moments change your life forever.
I just wanted to share this audio clip from #TheStarsWillStillBeThere - the very first inkling that something was amiss.

Like so many other families, we thought brain tumours happened to other people but we were horribly wrong.

#BrainTumourAwarenessMonth
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Such a great night, amazing how the entire audience were word perfect & yet we’re all walking into rooms & trying to remember what we came in for. ❤️
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Delighted to reveal the lovely new cover of #thestarswillstillbethere inspired by a canvas Gracie painted, which only makes me love it more

Thanks to everyone who's posted a review your kind comments have meant the world

Paperback on sale in May pre-order here lnk.to/TheStarsWill...

#bemorelaura
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Gracie & I got matching tattoos when we lost Laura last year, I felt the need to wear my grief in some way because I would forever by branded by the loss of my daughter. She was my North my South, my East my West. My working week and my Sunday rest.

~ @shitscaredmum.bsky.social

#tattoosoflove
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You should be very proud of this incredible book Kevin - and lovely to see mine on the shelf too x
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Currently in @waterstones.bsky.social Newcastle, where our book is proudly displayed next to my friend @shitscaredmum.bsky.social book The stars will still be there. Nicolas story is also in our book and all royalties from sales of Stories of Cancer and Hope go to Maggies
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Gracie's recently joined the team at Sibling Support Charity & this week they’ve launched an incredibly helpful resource for parents trying to help a child cope with the loss of their sibling.
Please feel free to share with anyone who might find it helpful ❤️
www.siblingsupport.co.uk/programme-fo...
Sibling bereavement support for parents — Sibling Support
Around 100 parents, siblings and bereavement practitioners have come together to create the programme for parents, supporting adults after the death of their child. The programme has advice, activitie...
www.siblingsupport.co.uk
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Public speaking scares the pants off me but it’s important to share our stories (& #bemorelaura ) so today I was grateful for the opportunity to speak at a brilliant Pro Manchester event alongside the inspirational Clarke Carlisle & Andrew Jenkins from S2 #Traitors
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Thank you so much Caroline xx
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Thanks Nerys - you too xxx
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“We walked to a bench overlooking the sea to stare up at a million stars in the velvet sky, untroubled by light pollution.

‘When we’re dead & buried, the stars will still be there, & the tide will come in and go back out; we’re really hardly anything at all, are we?’ Laura said softly.”
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I’m sure I’ve been guilty of this in the past & I know I meant well but whether it’s the loss of a loved one or a horrible diagnosis - words really do count.
Starting a consoling sentence with ‘Well at least…’ is never a good idea & if you don’t know what to say - just say that ❤️
#grief #childloss
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I’m so desperately sorry for your truly heartbreaking loss, it’s just unthinkable to lose your child xx
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Thanks Andy, some days (and some dates) are just harder to pass than others aren’t they whether it’s 11 months or 11 years it’s still so painful to be without our children xxxx
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That’s so lovely of you to say Clare, grief can be such a lonely place xxx
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Thank you, sometimes it feels like you need to fake it just to make other people feel less uncomfortable around you x
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Those milestones dates are so painful and the weeks and days leading up almost worse in some ways, I’m so sorry Jonathon and Kayleigh aren’t here with you, will be thinking of you as those dates approach. Sending so much love x
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That's exactly it Deb, you miss the child they were as well as the adult life that was stolen away from them. It just feels so unfair, I'm so very sorry for the loss of Jonathon xxx
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Just feels unreal doesn't it, like a whole other life. I'm so deeply sorry for the loss of your beautiful Kayleigh, somethings make no sense at all x