I’m so sorry you are on this journey as well. 🫂

Today marked three months since Zeta’s death. I had several opportunities to be with people but I just couldn’t bring myself to do anything other than sleep, stream light comedy, and cry. #grief #childloss

I have no desire to self-harm and am safe but I just don’t feel attached to an ongoing future. I am simply breathing through one moment at a time.

My first thought as the ball dropped entering 2025 was “I don’t want to do this.” I am dedicated to seeing this first full year without Zeta through though, with hopes that by 2026 the endless pain will have eased some. It’s what they would want & I don’t want my surviving family to suffer more.

Not really. I spent some time alone with my mom after the big gatherings, which helped. My stepfather died this spring so we are able to be there for each other. I definitely feel what you mean about not being able to face the future. It’s all I can do to remain rooted in the present.

I managed to get through the holidays but all the togetherness brought waves of missing them so much I couldn’t breathe. I have particular comfort & grief in being with my niblings & friends’ kids they’d grown up with. Zeta’s absence was palpable yet no one else seemed to feel it. #grief #childloss

Thank you. x Yes, I haven’t encountered it yet for myself as it is still so new but I watched my best friend go through that as a young widow, and I went through a version of that friend drop off when I became chronically ill and disabled.

While I’m sharing, this is Zeta’s obituary. I hope you will read it and share in their memory. #grief #childloss

www.keefefuneralhome.com/memorials/ze...

And I am painfully aware of this grief stretching out endlessly in front of me. I have seen how the support for my best friend dropped off after she was widowed although she carries it with her 17 years later. It will only be two months for me tomorrow. #grief #childloss

I was so blessed to be surrounded by people who loved both Zeta & me, & to go out with my oldest friends after the reception but I had major event drop afterwards. I had the thought “I will never have this much support ever again.” Unless I marry again I’ll never have these people gathered with me.

We had the memorial service for my child Zeta on Saturday at MIT’s chapel. It was a beautiful service, a mix of Jewish tradition, personal shares, photographs, & music they loved. I’m grateful friends of up to 40 yrs came from as far as VA & supported me throughout the weekend. #grief #childloss

BREAKING: Oral arguments in U.S. v. Skrmetti, the first Supreme Court case on health care access for trans people, have concluded.

Now, the Court must do the right thing: Affirm our constitutional promise to equal protection for all.

I’m so sorry for your loss. My Zeta was 22 & also died by suicide in October. They had been hospitalized repeatedly since early high school but they had been having a great year in school, work, their relationship, & with family & friends. They had always sought out help before. I’m still in shock.

this is a combined view of the hubble and webb views of the ring nebula and oh my god it’s SO beautiful 🌌