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🏳️‍🌈She/They Lesbian Artist and Writer. 🏳️‍🌈 ⚜️Saints Row Content Creator Multi Fandom. Banner by @lildraws.bsky.social
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Literally I'm just chilling with all stuff centered around actual plots and character studies like:
Not pointing fingers but realizing how someone centered their writing tropes with constant themes of harems or sexual content for a good chunk of their novel projects???? I must've been the only one in the room weirded tf out of that?
I never pay attention to my old YT videos but this dumbass responded to a old old video I did and ?????
BITCH WHAT THE FUCK?! First off why in the actual Hell would you try to insert yourself into a terrible situation that puts the victim in severe danger to make yourself look good?? Second, The fact that this is out in the open just makes it more idiotic, what the Hell is online decency anymore...
i cannot believe that i have to say this but please dont try to pry into my personal trauma for answers. please also dont pester me to answer the questions you have about it. please also dont go TO MY ABUSER and ASK HIM? this puts me in danger of being further targeted by a man that tried to kill me
At the same time, it was a terrible cycle since I had it worse being not just a girl, but a 16 year old on the internet- where grown men dismiss your emotions and gaslit you into thinking you're the problem for reacting a certain way
This is definitely a safe space to say this, but in retrospective, yeah while I was pretty mean to teens/ minors back then, I was still looking out for them to make sure adults weren't being fucking gross to them.
From what I could actually still remember- it really was the fucking trenches at that time in a very male centered community.
This was like maybe 14 years ago but at the time a lot of the content that was put out there-sadly a lot of the female characters or Touhou characters featured in those works were just portrayed as one dimensional or someone's like ughh- waifu ew...
WAIT?!?! WHY DID I EAT THIS UP WHEN I WAS 17?!
The fact that a majority of the community were minors at the time- but there were definitely a decent amount of grown adults that should've known better.
How I was running around the wagon between 2014-2018
Overall there had always been issues with trusting certain adults in Touhou fan spaces that do have minors around when there are those that take advantage and never face consequences and the ones that don't take accountability are just as bad.
And I will admit my team was not perfect either especially the fact that I did walk away from all of it and leaving everything in limbo as everyone else also retired or walk away from it.
It really baffled me how lightly these people took hard evidence of abuse in the hands of one of the "trusted" leaders of the community- something about not understanding the history and doomed to repeat it.
Mental health issues are very shitty but it should never be thrown as an excuse for abusive behavior. As someone that does have mental health issues- I would NEVER lay a finger on my partner or take it out on another person.
Hearing that word got out that Diz was not only an abuser, but a groomer made me sick to my stomach as someone who I used to think was a friend. I really wished I never associated with him. It baffled me that this team still stood by and victim blamed based off some bs from the past.
Like I'm aware that I might've damaged some bridges of people who I used to associate but in retrospective, I feel like naturally distancing myself to community spaces ended up dodging a nuke. It did save a lot more devastation had I've continued maintain communication.
It's just that there have always been multiple instances of problematic admins/mods that never take actual consequences or immediate actions despite all the shit happening right in the open.
I understand that there was no main leader in this leadership dynamic but it definitely showed that there was a lack of taking any accountability of their own faults or rightful action that should've taken place immediately.
But after a bit I did try to get back into the wagon slowly, there was a small shift in the leading team but there were still lingering issues with boundaries that weren't set. From what I could see in the surface area.
One thing leads to another which snowballed into a big rift from the community and at the time I had my own struggles with my own personal demons getting out of my substance abuse issue and a toxic relationship.
While I did see myself as good friends with some of the admins at the time didn't mean I wasn't blind to their issues. I've did what I could've done to be as much as a good leader without holding an actual position in the wagon. I do admit that my team at the time constantly bump heads with them