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LumberJake @lumberjake.bsky.social · 1d

When I pass away, I will come back as this spectral ratdog and sit on the chests of health insurance CEOs and stare at them nightly like this until daybreak. I will grant them immortality but deny healing. Every injury and pain they suffer shall compound exponentially. Eternally. #procreateart

A yellow orange grotesque ratdog chihuahua Cryptid with bulging eyes and a pig like snout. Blues and reds and greens color the background with a gritty grungy cinderblock and peeling paint overlay.

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LumberJake @lumberjake.bsky.social · 1d

Well, I already blew my inheritance from my grandma on trying to fix this, and my extended family DGAF about me, so I really am very much alone in this financially. All I can do is keep fighting and see where life takes me.

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LumberJake @lumberjake.bsky.social · 1d

I can't. The pain is too much. I would need to be stretched out and sedated. I'm barely able to make the 6 minute drive to work

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LumberJake @lumberjake.bsky.social · 1d

I'm going to end the woe is me rant here for now. I just want to put it out there that this suffering is needless and could have been prevented but we live in healthcare hell. They are acting in bad faith. My joy is gone. I carry on reflexively. I merely exist and nothing more. (10 of 10)

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LumberJake @lumberjake.bsky.social · 1d

My back would not make it travelling. Especially attempting to seek help outside the states. I'm stuck. I went from occasional cane use in March to always needing one. It can sometimes take a full minute to get one foot up the curb and follow with the other (9 of _ )

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LumberJake @lumberjake.bsky.social · 1d

I'm screaming into the void, I know. Who am I, right? I'm nobody. If anything, I hope that someone sees this and is inspired or able to make changes in our healthcare system so others don't suffer the way I am right now. I don't have money or options despite my 9 to 5. (8 of _ )

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LumberJake @lumberjake.bsky.social · 1d

I'm 45. It's entirely possible to live past 80 and to have a full life, but that's being withheld from me. I could adapt to partial paralysis, but I can't do that on top of the stabbing excruciating pain. I can't use half the stuff in my room because I can't access it easily anymore (7 of _ )

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LumberJake @lumberjake.bsky.social · 1d

This could be fixed right now. The insurance merely has to say yes. They don't think it is necessary. I use all my mental resources fighting this and I'm losing. I would not last one night on the streets in this condition. If a spasm and fall doesn't end me, my hopelessness possibly will. (6 of _ )

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LumberJake @lumberjake.bsky.social · 1d

Trying to save FMLA for actual recovery. I want to live. I want a reduction in pain. My life is bed because I spend all my strength working then come home and try to rest. Everything feels pointless. This isn't living. It's my body as a prison of pain (5 of _ )

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LumberJake @lumberjake.bsky.social · 1d

The pain and back spasms/pinching are there regardless of position now. WFH would not help. I haven't applied for disability because it takes time and this should have been fixed with surgery. If I even get approved it will cost more because they pushed it to the next year. (4 of _ )

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LumberJake @lumberjake.bsky.social · 1d

Work has given me use of a power chair while in the office. My only saving grace that allows me to make my full wage, but I'm not doing the things I was hired to do. Now it's more admin stuff. This was supposed to be temporary until I got a procedure. It can't go forever (3 of _ )

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LumberJake @lumberjake.bsky.social · 1d

Weight loss has not made it better. Going down stairs takes 15 minutes. My spine is bone on bone. The pain is excruciating. My social life is gone. My will to do anything is mostly gone as well. Art is hard because I am overwhelmed with anxiety about the future. The pain is never below an 8 (2 of _)

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LumberJake @lumberjake.bsky.social · 1d

Lost 40+lbs since March and all PT has made my mobility worse. Two MRIs in a months span this summer show the L5 S1 going from a bulge to gone. ABCBS of Tennessee denied all appeals. Grievance hearing not until Dec. It takes 10 minutes to get out of bed from pain. Pain pills do not help. (1 of _ )

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LumberJake @lumberjake.bsky.social · Sep 2

www.tumblr.com/actuallumber...

Try this instead. Sorry

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Tumblr is a place to express yourself, discover yourself, and bond over the stuff you love. It's where your interests connect you with your people.

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LumberJake @lumberjake.bsky.social · Sep 2

Giffing

LumberJake @lumberjake.bsky.social · Sep 2

It's not gifting?

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LumberJake @lumberjake.bsky.social · Sep 2

I am currently dealing with a bad lumbar and heading towards possible permanent paralysis. Insurance/bwc is a nightmare. Lost the will to do most anything. The pain is enormous. I have mustered the will to make my first animation and pixel art. Harder than I thought. Meant to post this weeks ago.

A blue Labubu moving side to side with a pink and blue gradient and 4 letters that have blue stripes crying. #labubu #themonsters #gifs #pixelstudio #artistsupport #artistssupport #art #bskyart

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LumberJake @lumberjake.bsky.social · Jul 26

This took a couple weeks because everything is so wtf right now.

A symmetrical illustration of an inter dimensional being. A small green alien at the bottom, arms opened wide, and enveloped in the creature as if it is the pilot. There are root like growths extending out the lower body that end in hand like growths. The creature has 8 tentacles and two of them are holding big slicey bois. The creature has a long neck with a feminine head. It has a toothy smile with some teeth missing. It has five eyes. Three on the head and two more; each attached to an antenna. It is blueish green. The eyes are yellow and red. It has orange flowing hair. On the top of its head is an ornamental growth in the shape of a heart wearing a crown. The creature looks like your mom. #artistsupport #artsupport #art #surreal #digitalart #digitalillustration #tentacles

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LumberJake @lumberjake.bsky.social · Jul 4

We had the contract from 2012 to 2019 when the company, general theming contractors (later artists with machines) was shut down for federal tax fraud. I still have all of the original files timestamped. None of the beaver signs were changed until beaver Utah became viral on Reddit

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LumberJake @lumberjake.bsky.social · Jul 4

We started the laser department with one laser in December of 2012. Ish. We won the bid around that time to produce all of their signs for the rebrand. I am aware that there were some prototyping stores using a foamcore with a brushed vinyl. We used a specific acrylic that was a pain to cut (1/of2)

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LumberJake @lumberjake.bsky.social · Jul 4

We also had to change that one.

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LumberJake @lumberjake.bsky.social · Jun 28

And they're like "haaaay uuuuu guuuuuuuys"

I can't rhyme

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LumberJake @lumberjake.bsky.social · Jun 28

I think I am the first based on Google search to use "Goonin' Credit Union"

LumberJake @lumberjake.bsky.social · Jun 28

Getting a back procedure soon so I can return to twerk full duty. I don’t actually have a twin…or a sloth. I made this for you to store in ur g0Onin’ credit union. #artistsupport #digitalillustration #myocart #oc #art #bskyart

Me and my thicc twin twerkin’ over our canes with a sloth buddy riding the twerk snake back and forth forever. We are wearing orange and black flannel shirts and polka dot jam jams. We are barefoot but not Contessa. Ol’ slothy boi has a five pointed crown. Thank you, five. There is a heart behind him with chain link patterning. The overall color is orange and reds with accents of greenish blues. Everything is heavily textured. #tgts #truegrittexturesupply

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LumberJake @lumberjake.bsky.social · Jun 27

Just checked and you're halfway there now! ❤️🔥

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