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Loxy Feldspar

Loxy Feldspar

@loxyface.bsky.social

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32 🎭 formerly "chaotic bisexual demigirl" recently converted sapphic 🦇 living with PKD & schizoaffective disorder 💊 goth girl stuck in a redneck town in Canada https://linktr.ee/loxyface

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Loxy Feldspar @loxyface.bsky.social · Oct 18

Loxy here 🕷️ my posts are varied but include passing thoughts, outfits of the day, dark art, different kinds of music, video games, and things that make me laugh.

spiders are my friend! i'm forever obsessed with AFYCSO. eggs are my favorite food 🍳 i also stream on twitch occasionally! links in bio

Loxy Feldspar @loxyface.bsky.social · 1d

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Loxy Feldspar @loxyface.bsky.social · 1d

Nadja (+the doll) from What We Do in the Shadows for halloween 🧛🏻‍♀️

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Emo Moments @emomoments.bsky.social · 3d

Photo of Hayley Williams from Paramore.

Loxy Feldspar @loxyface.bsky.social · 2d

i got suckered into buying 3 full size chocolate bars for $20. it was a lady trying to raise money to get back to her family in the Phillipines. i happened to have a 20 on me so i was like "fuck it let's do it"

Loxy Feldspar @loxyface.bsky.social · 2d

just had to answer the door in my halloween costume... they asked if i'm having a halloween party (i said yes) ((no i'm not having one))

Loxy Feldspar @loxyface.bsky.social · 5d

(i think i just want an excuse to buy more things lmao)

Loxy Feldspar @loxyface.bsky.social · 5d

is A5 the standard size for journals? just realized i ordered all 5 in the same size despite not paying any attention to what size they were, so that's pretty lucky

if you do any fun kinds of journals let me know what they are! all 5 of mine are for different things and i'm open to adding a 6th

Loxy Feldspar @loxyface.bsky.social · 5d

that's about the 3rd or 4th one i know of!! i swear there is a "me" factory out there...

Loxy Feldspar @loxyface.bsky.social · 18d

finished my Halloween room in Hello Kitty Island Adventure! also made a crafting room and a spa room

Loxy Feldspar @loxyface.bsky.social · 20d

misophonia has been really bad lately. every time the people i live with eat crunchy food, every time they cough burp or clear their throat, even just the sound of their breathing - i get really bad intrusive thoughts and rage

which is really annoying because i like spending time around them

Loxy Feldspar @loxyface.bsky.social · 20d

i've been refraining from venting on here (aside from the last thread) because i thought it would be good to keep this more professional, but it has felt like a part of me is missing. i think i want to include that kind of openness in this new place

Loxy Feldspar @loxyface.bsky.social · 20d

ahhh that's so refreshing to hear, i've always wondered if there was anyone who appreciated that about me. i usually just feel like i'm annoying everyone 😅 but i need to be less hard on myself probably

appreciate you sticking around

Loxy Feldspar @loxyface.bsky.social · 20d

oh man sometimes i've wondered how he's doing, and have had the idea to ask you a couple times but yeah didn't know if y'all still talked 😅

Loxy Feldspar @loxyface.bsky.social · 20d

honestly i love that for us hahaha it's a lot more comical

Loxy Feldspar @loxyface.bsky.social · 20d

which isn't to say that all people consuming it are like that, and that all people i attracted were unsavory. i met a lot of good people, too. but i'd now like to meet people who didn't find me that way, & i don't know how to do that. the lewds attracted people with zero effort.

Loxy Feldspar @loxyface.bsky.social · 20d

and i call it low hanging fruit b/c you don't have to have a personality, you don't have to be a good person; the people consuming it are often just sating the most basic of instincts and not giving it any more thought than that. lewds can speak a language when you don't know any words

Loxy Feldspar @loxyface.bsky.social · 20d

i don't regret that i previously engaged in the low hanging fruit of posting lewds, but i regret that a large chunk of the people it attracted to me were unsavory

Loxy Feldspar @loxyface.bsky.social · 20d

tfw you realize you have to seek out the kinds of people you want to have in your space, and that they're not just going to come to you magically

Loxy Feldspar @loxyface.bsky.social · 21d

it's a knock-off of a Vivienne Westwood lighter necklace, popularized by Ai Yazawa's Nana manga/anime

Loxy Feldspar @loxyface.bsky.social · 21d

balance is key! i went all out that first year which is probably why i rebounded for so long. gonna try to find that sweet spot between depriving myself and indulging now that i've done both

Loxy Feldspar @loxyface.bsky.social · 21d

i swear i cut my bangs straight, you just can't tell until i flatiron them

Loxy Feldspar @loxyface.bsky.social · 22d

weight loss journey over the last 2 years... first year, lost 15kg by working my ass off (uphill against my meds, known for weight gain). 2nd year, started slacking off, gained some back, lost some again and now i'm down 17kg from my start weight.

im half way there & ready to work my ass off again!

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Ilona @efnyea.bsky.social · 25d

Out of all the Outer Wilds places, I think this is the one that made the most impact on me when I first stumbled upon it...

#outerwilds #outerwildsarts

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✨️Angel Facts✨️ @angelic.style · 24d

*kneeling before the Queen*

me: my lady. Shid, but also Fard

the Queen: hmm. troubling is this news, indeed

Loxy Feldspar @loxyface.bsky.social · 24d

our confidence is not infinite. when you're not young & thin it seems we're cursed to have to work for it. ruts like this come and go for me - so i'm hoping it's only a temporary thing. i understand the struggle though... sending psychic hugs your way