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what chances? what chances are there? there's no dms, there's no people telling me "stop, don't do that", people have moved on from me, they don't remember me or know me, it's better that way. it's better if I'm gone

Thank you... I would talk but... I think at this point I've just kind of accepted I'm going to ruin any friendship I try to make, which is why I'm debating getting rid of everything... i really should just get rid of everything, im so tired

I'm trying really hard to understand what you wrote/what you're trying to say, I'm so sorry. I don't really understand what this means but I do appreciate the fact you keep messaging back.

i understand... i think most people are nervous to talk to others, it's a very normal feeling... i would've reached out more but considering how much ive ruined in the past decade with people, i just... got scared of doing it again, hurting people again, going through that loss again

I should clarify that I don't think it'd be out of callousness or cruelty but because people have moved on and/or don't form strong attachments to people they follow on social media, and its easy to lose track of people in a sea of faces.

this isn't really helping because /I/dont know anyone that still likes it, and i havent gotten any dms or messages... i dont want "good ol times", i just want friends, any friends, people who will talk to me, im at a point where i'm certain that if i died, no one would notice or care /gen

stopping me from what? i dont understand the question. I lost every friend I had, whether through burned bridges or people moving on, I haven't been paid at work since 2023, no one is into ososan anymore except me, ive missed out on everything, i lost everything, i have nothing irl, its over

I mean tbh I think the main issue is that at the moment I don't really have anyone to talk to about... Anything. No irl friends, no online friends, they've all either moved on or I fucked things up. I lost every social connection I had... I lost everything

I'm really not doing okay... I feel like I've lost everyone and everything I had, I feel like I have no place to go back to, I haven't been able to make any friends, I have no drive, I feel nauseous at the thought of trying to make a return, I've lost everything

am tempted to delete all my accounts and stuff, i havent logged onto discord or social media in forever, i just feel like ill never be able to rejoin ososan at this point

sorry i havent been active at all, im still struggling really bad, its not good... idk what to do, i just feel really alone and like ive lost all my confidence and that i shouldn't ever post to fandom spaces again

I'll be real, I'm not doing so hot, it's been the worst year of my life, I just want people to talk to again, I miss it so much, I miss calls, I miss group draws, I miss a place to talk about aus and inserts, I don't know what to do anymore

I know I made a post like this already but I'm thinking of trying to do a matsu insert group server for people I see on my feed often/people who love making aus and sharing them with people/A fresh place for people to hang out, but I'd need help/people interested

Sorry I keep coming on to apologize for being inactive and then continuing to like... Disappear/go offline for awhile... Truthfully, I'm not doing very good for a lot of reasons/finding it hard to want to create things anymore

@1may0ne.bsky.social THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL THESE CUTE DOODLES!!! Sorry it took me so long to post them, I've been offline for a few days. Thank you so much I love them 😭

I am obsessed with this art style/her fashion!!

Idk how to socialize/make friends so like this post if it's okay for me to dm/interact with you, I need to get better at this

god I'm just so bad at like... knowing how to reach out to someone that isn't in a discord group server... but also there's like no ososan insert servers that are active, so I'm hdjsgh

resists urge to revive my dead ososan self insert servers/make a server for people to join each others aus OTL

sorry im obsessed with a guy

nuh-uh

holy shit I'm obsessed with the art style here, she's absolutely adorable!!!