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languagedebt
@languagedebt.bsky.social
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autism (adhd/ocd diagnosis potentially in the future) feline internet explorer, computer things are my passion!! they/she/it cat discord is the same username!! (dms open!) (very open to friends) inside for ~2 years and counting vent potential
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languagedebt @languagedebt.bsky.social · 2d
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languagedebt @languagedebt.bsky.social · 1h
happ birday!!!!
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languagedebt @languagedebt.bsky.social · 9h
i cannot derive worth from any of this i just cannot get any worth i'm talking like a pattern stop here thank youuuuu,,
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languagedebt @languagedebt.bsky.social · 9h
i sit here every day melting into patterns the youtube unchanging the others not talking i cannot live like this,,
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languagedebt @languagedebt.bsky.social · 9h
weirdo!! no talk for you!!
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languagedebt @languagedebt.bsky.social · 9h
i'm her!! i'm her!! i'm clearly fake!! asylum for me!!!
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languagedebt @languagedebt.bsky.social · 9h
everything is patterns and i'm not worth talking to i shouldn't be liv,,,
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languagedebt @languagedebt.bsky.social · 23h
i dont like raising my voice but I NEED HELP I NEED HELP IF YOU SEE THIS PLEASE CONTACT ME,,
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languagedebt @languagedebt.bsky.social · 23h
HELP ME PLEASE I NEED HELP,,,
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languagedebt @languagedebt.bsky.social · 1d
you dont keep them private!!!! chasm of women never seen just for you :-3
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languagedebt @languagedebt.bsky.social · 1d
awwww,,,
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languagedebt @languagedebt.bsky.social · 1d
i wont exist at any point anyway,,, i should delete all of these posts and archive the json then send it to someone over dms before someone finds these for my own sake because private accounts dont exist yet,,,
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languagedebt @languagedebt.bsky.social · 1d
all i want at the end is friends,, fungus killing me or heart shit or whatever the fuck i just want friends before its over i'm not sure if the world will keep together or i will or something before i turn 23 in years or chemicals or whatevert the fuck im donee,,
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languagedebt @languagedebt.bsky.social · 1d
maybe it's my body decaying causing my view of self to never evolve into what it was going to and my fear of estrogen fucking with heart stuff and i'm unable to know because there's no doctor to tell me and i would need to talk with a doctor to talk about it and solidify even more soup,,
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languagedebt @languagedebt.bsky.social · 1d
feeling distant from transness and animality is purely due to my teenage development not getting the compassion it needs to give oxygen to that identity and the walls starting to fall, changing my pronouns is letting this gender soup solidify in a way i feel is going backwards,,
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languagedebt @languagedebt.bsky.social · 1d
i dont just wanna un-lesbian because my ocd and my ocd's reinterpretation of what someone said says i should,,,
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languagedebt @languagedebt.bsky.social · 1d
i just wish i could get someone to catch up with this decay,, my ocd gaslighting me by imagining me as masc,, being in a masc place,,, you could say "oh your genderfluid" or "oh then you clearly arent fem" but then i'd be nothing but straight and fall into my ocd and let it win,,,
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languagedebt @languagedebt.bsky.social · 1d
i accidentally pressed enter early,,
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languagedebt @languagedebt.bsky.social · 1d
it feels like whenever i'm alone.. any masc trait, any slight disparity between my identity and me... anything like that chips away at my own fem form,,
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languagedebt @languagedebt.bsky.social · 1d
you have great value :-3
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languagedebt @languagedebt.bsky.social · 2d
sorryyy if anybody reads those posts and gets worried!! i wont do anything don't worry i just really need someone to care about me in the way that shows and unfortunately while they do care i just cant feel it yet,,
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languagedebt @languagedebt.bsky.social · 2d
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languagedebt @languagedebt.bsky.social · 2d
i see everyone launching their own stuff and playing with others and being with others and i'm secondary, it's one of the main reasons why i've even wanted to get into relationship stuff at all because it's the only way i'm repeating myself i think,,,
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languagedebt @languagedebt.bsky.social · 2d
it feels incredibly selfish to just say "the others around me dont care about me enough so i shouldn't be here" but i really cannot imagine living without this inherent stuff i feel like i cant replicate again,, even this new friend this new space just doesn't feel right still,,
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languagedebt @languagedebt.bsky.social · 2d
if i say these are just thoughts i'm not sure how much of a difference it makes...
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languagedebt @languagedebt.bsky.social · 2d
nobody is reading these i just want it to be over i wont get the experiences i want ever and i lost something that clearly made me never get to friendships i want,, the universe is egging me on to end it seemingly,,
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