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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 40m

Why do we meet, wreathed in sadness?

✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 1h

Why did I want to die when I was still alive?

✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 2h

If I was gone, If I had just disappeared. I overheard, I found out, how much I’m not needed

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 3h

If you can't use that name yourself, I'll use it while talking to you.

✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 4h

After the birds take flight, surely all they leave behind is some crappy art

✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 5h

a colorful illusion, a joyful dream... you won't take away any of them, not you

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 7h

So you’re really saying that with such a straight face, to me of all people? You’re saying the reason we lost so badly in our last performance... was all because of me…?

✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 8h

I'm doing all that I can to behave like a human! What more does he want from me?!

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 9h

I wonder why our hatred is so strong? Where does this emotion come from? I guess we'll just have to figure it out together. You and I are one now, after all… Like a clear, empty field lit by a pale blue moon.

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 10h

For a deplorable big brother to make his little sister worry so much like this... there's no reason for him to live, don't you think? Wouldn't it better for him to hurry up and die? Good riddance to him. That's what I think, from the bottom of my heart.

✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 11h

I think too long, so by the time I make a decision, things are too late and all I'm left with is regret... I feel like I've been through this thousands of times already. And I didn't like any one of them... Not one...

✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 12h

He said, 'Miracles do happen, and salvation will be given to those who believe.' Blind faith, deluded faith, pray, pray, pray, and misfortune will befall you.

✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 13h

Resonating through the magnificent ocean depths, there’s a growing, supportive sympathy. But why when I’m alone do I feel like a fraud?

✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 14h

(My Oniichan hates inefficiency and waste of time. For such an older brother, my dependence and feelings must feel like a nuisance.)

✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 15h

This is our day by day, our day by day. Everything is laughing at me today. I’m shouldering so much, all for your sake.

✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 16h

But you admit that you're lonely, you're as cold as a statue, Pleading 'fuck me' on the marble that was used to create you

✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 17h

You care so much about what others think. Does that also come from your body?

✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 18h

Be grateful. Feel indebted to me to death.

✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 19h

I just wanted to be praised. By my dad and my mom. To be told I did well...

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 20h

Good! Stay that way! I hope you never understand me, even after I'm buried a billion miles deep in the ground and you're weeping at my grave, you piece of shit!

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✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 21h

'I'll be like a father to you, more reliable than Mom could ever be. I'll protect and raise you.'—But what about me? Who will raise me?

✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 22h

No one will be happy if I'm the only one who comes home.

✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 23h

If I can't be with you, then I want to be you.

✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 1d

You have to grow stronger than me using the sword of a human.

✦ the boy's savior @goodbyesirius.bsky.social · 1d

Nageki… Nageki… Nageki… Can you hear me? I’ve come to save you again.